Provision, direction, and clarification have been on my mind for about two years now. From the moment I had my first vision and revelation about missionary work, ever since I was confident enough to believe God can and will use little me for a major task I have sought God to show me His way. In this two-year time frame, the Lord has continuously given and taken away. He has continuously proved himself; he has continuously showered me with blessings and continuously bettered whatever state I was in prior to the previous circumstance. I suppose the reason I am now writing about this is because despite everything he has done, not only in the last two years, but throughout my life, I still, even today, probably even as I am writing this, continue to doubt. I believe I am not the only one who battles with unbelief despite the numerous miracles God has performed in my life and that I have been able to witness. We all have a little Thomas in us. But deliverance comes when we confront, confess, and repent about our unbelief. Just as the man who brought his demon-possessed boy to Jesus, we ought to bring our own impurities to him. Even though the man still had some doubt in him, Jesus still delivered the boy and showed compassion, grace and mercy on a man who had just enough belief to bring him to Jesus in the first place.
23“‘If you can’?” said Jesus. “Everything is possible for the one who believes.” 24. Immediately the boy’s father exclaimed, “I do believe; help me overcome my unbelief!”
How will I get enough sponsors and money for this mission trip? How will I pay my bills and school loans before or during the trip? How will I confront the challenges, the stress, the negative vibes, and pessimistic people? All those thoughts and more have caused affliction in my spirit. I think that is mainly because I never imagined myself capable of doing something great, but God did not call me, us, to be mediocre or average in what we do for His Glory and for the purpose he has for us! He has called us to be the Salt and Light and Oh My! That is a mighty task! It is a task we truly cannot accomplish on our own but the Lord has overcome the world, his power is immense and the blessings he has in store are much larger than we could ever imagine! So when he gives us a vision or an assignment whether it’s immediate or it requires patience, fasting, and prayer, he is faithful and he will equip and guide us along the way. Our job is to pursue Him, believe in Him, and trust that he will provide a way. We are already victorious as we walk with him. Doubting it would only damage our perception and may hinder us from a blessing if we let go of the little faith we have, but even faith the size of a mustard seed will move mountains! Hallelujah!
Lamentations 3: 19-24
19 I remember my affliction and my wandering, the bitterness and the gall. 20 I will remember them, and my soul is downcast within me. 21 Yet this I call to mind and therefore I have hope: 22 because of the Lord’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. 23 They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.24 I say to myself, “the lord is my portion; therefore I will wait for him”
There is no doubt that the Son of Man, was, is and will be forever! He had a hand in every aspect of my life. I noticed what I doubted was not his promise, but his timing. The enemy has a way of telling us that if we are not in control, if we do not know the next step, we can’t accomplish the task at hand. Worry often characterizes waiting as defeat. But for God patience is both a gift and a virtue. He is an On-Time God! I’m so glad I am NOT in control and it is necessary for us as his children to embrace that. The father knows best. He knows the way, the place and the time.
2 Peter 3:8, 9
8“But do not forget this one thing, dear friends: With the Lord a day is like a thousand years, and a thousand years like a day. 9 The Lord is not slow in keeping his promise, as some understand slowness. Instead he is patient with you, not wanting anyone to perish, but everyone to come to repentance.”
The world feeds us distractions to redirect our focus on the wrong things for the wrong reasons without considering God’s plan, his children, or his kingdom. No matter how long it takes, be diligent, ask for guidance, and obey Gods calling because discipline, patience, and Love will lead to His Promise! BE MINDFUL! There will be tricks and traps, and falls, and heartaches. I pray that throughout the challenges, my heart and your heart never harden, but that we may be careful in what and who we accept to pour unto us. For the heart is so very precious.
Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it
Ultimately, as I seek for wisdom embarking on this new journey, I pray nothing I do will be for myself. I pray everything that is done for this mission trip, will be for God’s glory and the edification of his people. I pray that my brothers and sisters in Christ will not see me, but Christ’s work and his goodness surrounding the many things He will do. I pray people who don’t know him, lack faith in him, and who never experienced him to see a difference, a light, a hope in the one who died for our sins. I pray that no matter what challenges arise, there will be a praise in my spirit and thankfulness in my heart and that doubt will never overshadow the faith and that encouragement and comfort from the Holy Spirit will always be present to remind me that The Lord will provide!
1 Peter 4: 11
If anyone speaks, they should do so as one who speaks the very words of God. If anyone serves, they should do so with the strength God provides, so that in all things God may be praised though Jesus Christ. To him be the glory and power for ever and ever. Amen.