If I had any control over God’s plans for my life, I would’ve been married yesterday.
2 Peter 3:8 But you must not forget this one thing, dear friends: A day is like a thousand years to the Lord, and a thousand years is like a day.
He doesn’t work with my schedule. I run on His. So when friends and family ask me this question, or ask me “when do you plan on getting married?” I wish I could yell, or at least have a concrete answer. If I am honest my desire to be married or courting is more intense than my desire to resolve untouched traumatic experiences from my past. I am learning about myself and how I interact with people, family, and men. Truth is, I can’t leave the past untouched if I want to have a healthy relationship in the future. Why? Because it will manifest itself in how I relate to, trust, submit to, engage with another human being, especially a human being that will essentially hold my heart in his hands.
Genesis 2:18 Then the Lord God said, “It is not good for the man to be alone. I will make a helper who is just right for him.”
Genesis 2:23 “At last!” the man exclaimed. “This one is bone from my bone, and flesh from my flesh! She will be called ‘woman,’ because she was taken from ‘man.’”
I have dated to the point of being distracted from my purpose. I have done it wrong to the point of disobedience. I have done it to the point of unloving myself. And if he doesn’t love himself then it will take that much more from me spiritually and emotionally. I pray that fear won’t hold me back. I pray that I will take God-approved risks. But I pray that when the time comes I will be ready to love another, and that whoever he is will be ready to pursue a girl that can sometimes be more complicated than put together, but a woman who loves God, loves herself and is ready to love a Mr. Him.